It’s been a tumultuous few weeks for me. I’ve been adjusting at work much better than before, but this has come with some downsides here and there. For starters, I’ve had to start taking antidepressants. They’re actually used to help with my anxiety, but those two problems use the same type of medication. I’ve had an aversion to medication ever since I wasn’t properly informed about this back when I first took this medication well over 10 years ago. I really didn’t want to take antidepressants as a teenager because I didn’t see myself as depressed. My then psychiatrist told me she would give me anti anxiety medication. When I read the descriptions and it said that they were antidepressants after all, I felt betrayed. This wasn’t what I signed up for. In hindsight I understand that this was just a case of miscommunication, but it took me many years to get over this. I’m still not really over it, if I’m being totally honest with you. I still get that feeling of “am I doing better or is this medication tricking me into thinking I’m doing better?”
But at the end of the day, you shouldn’t argue with results, and the simple truth is that I’m doing better at work, regardless of why that is, and that’s a big win for me.
When it comes to writing, it’s been a lot less successful as you may have noticed. This is a common occurrence for me at the end of November when I finish NaNoWriMo, but it’s been hitting me quite hard this year. I didn’t manage to finish chapter 12 of the Necromancer’s Daughter in time for December and had to move it. I’ve also forgotten to upload a few posts here and there. I can only apologize. With the last work week of the year now kicking off, it’s time to finally bunker down and finish up the final couple of thousand of words I’m still missing to reach my 400.000 goal. I recognize it’s a pretty insane goal, and I’m very proud of the fact that I might reach it even considering I’ve had a lot going on this year. I’ll be focusing on getting those last few words and not on writing too many posts. But fret not, when the new year starts I’m hoping to return to three posts a week. Something different on Mondays, One Piece manga recaps on Wednesdays and Hesitant Hero volume 3 on Fridays. It should be a lot of fun.
Speaking of a lot of fun, you know what isn’t fun? That’s right, having a really bad flu. At least I think it’s the flu, I’m not a doctor but it sure feels pretty bad. I’ve got my last week of lessons coming up and there’s a combination of my students needing to do their tests and then some more fun lessons like Christmas lessons and some Netflix. We’re reading “A series of unfortunate events” in class and I promised them we would watch the Netflix series for it at some point. At least the first episode or so. They have to write an assignment about it in January so the last week before the break, after the tests are done, would be the perfect time to relax and watch the series. I’m going to call in sick tomorrow morning (I’m writing this on Sunday) and see if I can get someone else to take over the hours where I’ve scheduled tests. That way I can maybe still finish up everything I wanted to do before the break. Would leave me much more relaxed. That’s more or less my update for the last few weeks. Hopefully I don’t forget to upload the remaining One Piece recaps, and there will be an extra one to make up for the week I missed…. Maybe. I appreciate everyone’s patience, this year has been a big success for my blog in both views, uploads and just having a lot of fun with it. I can’t wait to see what next year brings and if things go really well I can even finish my first proper novel. Look forward to that and as always, thanks for reading.
Opal Kaharis 