I’ve been struggling. I’ve mainly been struggling with my mental health, but I’ve also been struggling with my physical health and with my university courses. I’m going to book a doctor’s appointment for this week to see if I can sort out some of the physical health issues I’m having.
As for university, that problem is going to end soon for better or worse. Either I get the assignment done and I pass it, or I get the assignment done and I don’t pass it. Obviously one of the two would be a lot better than the other, but all I can do is try my best. That leaves the big one, mental health.
I’ve talked here about mental health several times throughout the year and a bit I’ve been blogging. It’s very up and down for me a lot of the time, and right now it’s been down for a while. I’m struggling to keep up with my writing because of how I feel, and the bit of energy I do have every day is going towards uni assignments since that is, for the time being, more important than writing. Writing is my main goal in life, but I do need to get a degree and a job to support myself after all. But what do you do when your mental health is down in the dumps for a longer amount of time and there seems to be no end in sight?
What I need right now, is a mental reset. I’ve had so many years of therapy to learn from that I should be able to do that on my own, right? So what’s the plan? I’m writing this post on friday so by the time I post this on Monday I might be halfway done with the plan. If so, I’ll put a small update at the bottom of this post. Tomorrow I have to work. It’s a fairly long day but I’ll be listening to my favorite podcast all day. Afterwards I’ll treat myself to something nice to drink and eat. Then on Sunday I’m not setting an alarm. I might watch a nice movie or something, but I’ll probably take it slow. Then during the week I’ll unfortunately have to do a lot of uni stuff, but I’ll try to limit that to the morning. I’ll not worry about the MMO I’ve been playing and I’ll go to bed early every day. On top of all of that I’ll probably once again try to start eating healthier. Maybe my immune system is just awful because I don’t eat enough fruit and what not. I don’t know at this point, I’m willing to try anything to stop feeling mediocre all the time.
It’s important to acknowledge when you’re feeling down in the dumps. Sometimes there’s nothing you can do about it, and you just have to power through the things in life. Sometimes there are things you can do about it though, and it would be a shame to ignore those and watch things slowly get worse. I do that a lot, realize something’s wrong and not fix it. I guess that’s part of the problem though and I can’t really shame anyone for struggling with this. But when you do feel like you can, go out and improve on the things you can, so the only problems left are the ones out of your reach. I hope this makes sense to you all, it does to me.
And that’s really all I have to say to you guys today. I’ve made a clear schedule with what I want to post this month and I’m going to try to keep to it as best as I can. Even though it’s often difficult for me to hit the 1000 words a day I’ve been going for, I do feel satisfaction from the fact that I manage to reach the amount every day. And I think it’s important to acknowledge that I really appreciate the influx in views lately. The fact that people like reading my stories and my blog posts really brightens my day and motivates me to write more. So thank you all so much for all of that. And like any other post, thank you for reading, please leave a like if you would! See you next time.